To Do or Not To Do....

Looking at the title you guys must be thinking i am about to do something illegal rite? Not quite right...but on the other hand, i am about to risk something big in my life.

To commit full time to "something" i really like it alot, but less (nearer to none) income
I know when i start this "something" i am not able to work like my normal job now. i can't even think of looking for a job if i suddenly realise that my bank account is getting empty. which also means that, all my debts and loan now will be even much harder to settle. But this "something" will be more interesting and meaningful in ife. Many people who are into this have the same quote "you have to love them, you can't think of making big money" - quoted by both Chrises.

Is it 4.30am on the Sunday morning. Now you can see how this "something" is really troubling me. It is like 10million USD is at your door step but you cannot take it because it is not yours. It is like the blueberry cheese cake that you had crave for is on your dining table but you just can't get a bite out of it. *ish* geram-nia....

Many ppl will just say go for your dreams and do something you like, i know. But what's really troubling me? My mind keeps on thinking, what should i do so that i won't have to let hubby suffer alone for all the debt and loans i (we) had commited. Initially i am thinking that, i can still do something and help each other if we are financially unstable, but if i start this "something" i can't do that anymore. I can only focus on the "something" and let hubby bear the whole family. Even worst that he have to get involve and support in my "something".

Since "the-things-i-like-but-cannot-get" can't be fullfill i think i shall go for "the-things-i-like-but-it's-lost". My dog... i shall buy 2 puppies and teman me for the rest of my life. Make sure it is 1 male and 1 female this time so that i don't have to wait to long to breed them and continue the next generation. Stupid Missy, i had already arrange for the "marriage" thingy ma... can't wait a little longer...

Posted by Miki at 4:56 AM